The seemingly most super fine and dandy functional family one could imagine, on holiday, smiling faces, enjoying the shore...at home, going for walks, to the park, la la la and on and on, and yet this shriek comes from the depths of the pit of Overwhelm: 'We find ourselves in the darkest and most dysfunctional circumstances at times, sometimes I ask myself how and why this is happening, it is as if a force larger and more powerful than I can understand is playing out...' and my entire being wants to respond and is pretty much mute. By the enormity. By the universality. This subject of that universal underlying shaky ground floating above a darkness unfathomable, where does this come from? Is this the nature of things?
..and then the socially prevailing diagnosticians arrive on the scene, and the curtain somehow goes down upon all rhyme and reason...and we are off and running on their agenda...
This was foremost on my mind all morning, before I had received the letter from which I just quoted, this subject of from whence this primal shake rattle and roll which disturbs the equilibrium of our spirit...and I figured something as simple as this: We are born within a mortal frame and possess within us the reality itself, of immortality, not the idea but the reality. This is unbearably heavy stress without efficient assistance.
And assistance is available absolutely nowhere in this world.
You can turn to no one on earth for assistance.
I keep a mighty arsenal of tools polished by use, everyday use, my darkness is so vast that I require a great arsenal of weaponry to face the enemy forces.
As to your 'force larger and more powerful than I can understand' - yes, I believe we are in a sometimes largely calculated midst of co-mingled forces - I think your most pressing requirement at this moment is to find your very own meditation and to practice daily without fail, knowing it possesses eternal value and will bring you returns on your investment.
Please direct your conversation, which would be most welcome, in a comment: Thank you.