Thursday, July 28, 2011

Shaky Ground With Darkness Beneath

The seemingly most super fine and dandy functional family one could imagine, on holiday, smiling faces, enjoying the home, going for walks, to the park, la la la and on and on, and yet this shriek comes from the depths of the pit of Overwhelm: 'We find ourselves in the darkest and most dysfunctional circumstances at times, sometimes I ask myself how and why this is happening, it is as if a force larger and more powerful than I can understand is playing out...' and my entire being wants to respond and is pretty much mute. By the enormity. By the universality. This subject of that universal underlying shaky ground floating above a darkness unfathomable, where does this come from? Is this the nature of things?
..and then the socially prevailing diagnosticians arrive on the scene, and the curtain somehow goes down upon all rhyme and reason...and we are off and running on their agenda...
This was foremost on my mind all morning, before I had received the letter from which I just quoted, this subject of from whence this primal shake rattle and roll which disturbs the equilibrium of our spirit...and I figured something as simple as this: We are born within a mortal frame and possess within us the reality itself, of immortality, not the idea but the reality. This is unbearably heavy stress without efficient assistance.
And assistance is available absolutely nowhere in this world.
You can turn to no one on earth for assistance.

I keep a mighty arsenal of tools polished by use, everyday use, my darkness is so vast that I require a great arsenal of weaponry to face the enemy forces.

As to your 'force larger and more powerful than I can understand' - yes, I believe we are in a sometimes largely calculated midst of co-mingled forces - I think your most pressing requirement at this moment is to find your very own meditation and to practice daily without fail, knowing it possesses eternal value and will bring you returns on your investment.

Please direct your conversation, which would be most welcome, in a comment: Thank you.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

My Library Concerts Reviewed by Kelly Arpoika a Student of Prof. Boyle at OCCC

Kelly Arpoika

Music Appreciation

July 22, 2011

Michael Boyle

Pure Enjoyment

The other day my fiancée and I went and saw an amazing concert. It was a mix of beautiful music, history, and good story telling. Wayne McEvilly is a great host and an awesome musician he transports you to an era of beautiful classicism that you have never experienced before. For a whole hour you get to experience an inside look into a world of truly delightful music. He performs pieces by Chopin, Mozart, Beethoven and Bach. If you have never seen a concert by Wayne McEvilly I strongly suggest you go, you will be blown away.

When we first arrived at the Downtown Metropolitan Library we entered a nice room with a beautiful black piano on a stage that was made of light oak wood. Wayne McEvilly entered the room wearing a black tuxedo with tails, white shirt, black bow tie and black cowboy boots. He did his introductions then let us know that the audience is the most important part of the concert. Which is very true considering nobody could get anywhere if there wasn’t an audience to support the music. He gave us a little history of his work which included selling Italian ice and giving shoe shines for ten cents. When he sat down to his piano he let us know it was tuned to Mozart’s. He started playing “Amazing Grace” magnificently then it turned into an upbeat cheery tune. He then asked the audience if they knew what it was. Nobody knew, it was Mozart’s Papageno Act I and then he describes Mozart as an entire genius in his simplicity. It was so elegant, very lovely music. Moreover, he describes to us how music can tell a story without words. Then he quotes Aristotle “The ear is the door to the soul.” He describes music as metaphysics just like you don’t have to see Him to know he is around music can take you to a whole new level beyond earthly phsyics.

He explains how he plays this music for children to see how they react and what emotions they feel then he played three blind mice then he asked how it made us feel. Of course it made us feel pretty happy upbeat just like the children. Then he played a lower version of it and it sounded very dark and ominous. It is amazing how a few notes can really change the entire mood of the music and every one of all different ages can feel the same emotion that is portrayed by the music. Then explains that he got his first piano in 1940 and he heard a composer whose name I don’t remember, anyways he played a minuet from him and let me tell you it was absolutely breathtaking. It completely transported me. In fact there were so many emotions running through me it gave me chills to my spine and brought tears to my eyes. I can completely understand why it inspired him to play the piano if I had heard that when I was younger I might have felt the same way. He learned to play by ear which he explained if you play by ear you play by your heart.

Then he invited us to listen with our heart instead of using our minds. The first prelude of Bach was the first music he studied. Then he played for us the music birds, mourning dove, which is one tone. Then I guess he was trying to get us out of our comfort zones and asked us all to hum the tune while he played the piano. The music felt like waves of calm as they grew to release again to a slow quiet stop. You could just feel the energy in the room it was very moving. McEvilly is a pretty profound speaker he explained it is efficient to listen for a reality you simply can’t figure out. With Beethoven “Music is a higher revelation than philosophy”. He then took us back to fifth grade and made us count the notes. Then he replayed the major tones which were happy while the minor tones were ominous, dead. He asked us to close our eyes while he played a piece from Beethoven. On that journey I could just feel the sorrow and I was asking myself why the pain and in the midst of it there was a feeling of relief that made me feel like it’s okay even through the pain we will get through it. I felt all those emotions on that journey through Beethoven.

All these different journeys McEvilly is taking us through are amazing. He plays Chopin and as he is playing the music transported me to a beautiful ballroom. I could imagine me in a beautiful gown as I floated across the ballroom dance floor. Then it went into this intense vibe. There were so many emotions. After this beautiful journey he started to describe Liszt and how people told him he must play his music to be well balanced. Then he played Chopin’s Funeral by Liszt. Whoa, slow down there buddy, the emotions I got from that piece were confusion and little emotion well besides the confusion. Which is funny, while he was describing Liszt and who he wanted to do Chopin’s songs in his own way all I could think is this is what musicians do today. When the music is already great why mess with it? Then he played for us Beethoven Pathetique. Once again, chills throughout my body. I could just feel the dual emotions. The emotion would rise and swell then it would be such a sweet melody of love and life. It sent me on a rollercoaster of emotions just beautiful.

After the hour was over I felt as if I had been all over the world and back. Wayne McEvilly and his piano are a force to be reckoned with. How else can you experience a world full of emotion and history in just one hour? It is truly amazing how simple notes and keys on a piano when played a certain way can completely transform the mood, energy and emotion of everyone who is listening to it. In fact, it is absolutely astounding and magical. This is an hour well spent and I would suggest for anyone who has the chance to go and experience a world of beauty that Wayne McEvilly is willing to take you to.

Thursday, July 21, 2011


What shall I call you here?
Kumud is good :)

Let's begin:
You came here a quarter century ago...that is a long time to be away from Mother India - has there, over the past 25 years, been a real separation or not? Where is the contact point for you?
I hope this simple question will elicit a very nice revelatory response -

The separation is only physical - and even that gets removed regularly as I visit family every 18-24 months. Being in the USA has created the desire in me - by the repeated questioning of American friends - to study and understand the religion I grew up with - Hinduism.

So, in a way, I am more in touch with India - her thoughts, her scriptures, her traditions and her many paths to Divinity - living 7500 miles away :) It is to stay in touch, to educate myself - that I created
almost 15 years ago with a single post on the Gayatri mantra. It has grown a bit since then. :-)

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Resistance - Inertia - Even God Must Meet Them

A blog by Seth Godin made this happen:
Yes! The resistance was known to the poets of antiquity - in their primal prose-poem #sAmaveda they describe the evolution of the worlds all of which sprang by some circuitious indirection not directly but indirectly from the brainbox of the Creator - his ideas were to manifest as material reality - But wait! There is the Resistance - Intertia - the push against, the old lizard brain hardly crawed forth from the mire and slime of the scum mixed of water and mud alike - all its mighty might striving to see the stillbirth of the idea...what a drama! So why should it be any easier for us to get it shipped? Very important to enjoy the fight.

Monday, July 18, 2011

On Gratitude

"Gratitude bestows reverence, allowing us to encounter everyday epiphanies, those transcendent moments of awe that change forever how we experience life and the world."
- John Milton
Thus it is that Gratitude begets joy.
Joy begets Kindness.
Kindness begets Gratitude.



Wednesday, July 13, 2011


All across the nation the cry goes up and out and resoundsand is repeated - "Oh it is such a shame what is happening in our public schools. Oh what a terrible thing that music and art are being eliminated from children's lives."" I have heard this mournful ditty chanted as a mantra now by hundreds, even thousands of people, mostly after my concerts.
Well, I have a suggestion - cease the lamentations and simply do something - do one small thing now.
There is your assignment.
It is useless to address this issue, one of enormous importance to be sure with your moans and groans. Do something.
Each of us can do something to inspire a child to compose a great piece of work.
You can volunteer to read stories at a public library, you can take your life experiences into the schools as a volunteer and be of real use.
At the center of this issue is the child - The child is lost in a sea of the jargon employed by those who come forward to offer solutions. Forget connectivity and do something - CONNECT
Abandon jargon.
Here's what I have come up with over the decades:
Tell the story of MOZART GOES TO SCHOOL
In 1974 played Mozart for children in the second grade in a Los Alamos New Mexico Elementary School. I decided then and there I would be doing this for the rest of my life.
Tell the story of the recordings. Tell the story of how the recordings in classrooms made news, and of how that news opened the doors of school administrators, teachers, and reached through the ears of each and every individual child in each and every classroom, in each and every public school over entire cities.
"Mozart Helps Kids Compose Great Works" -
Here is a rousing call to action by Oklahoma's new
Superintendent of Public Education Janet Barressi - ' We don't need to wait for more money or more time. This is our time.'
Let's each do some small thing. Let's do it now.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


The great and most obvious difference between music and the other arts is that music is the only art which is made of tones - tones that are ordered in such a way as to be listened to. All the other arts manage to fit themselves in with the world which the eye has ordered. In music we pierce through the frame of the visible and enter the primal world of sound where no thing subsists.

When we transcend the world of objects in hearing music, what we experience is the presence of Being itself. We have crossed a frontier, a crossing which occurs nowhere else with such directness. Only music possesses the means for achieving a sensuous presentness of Being which is both direct and non-objective. The simplest music transcends the purely objective. Music too, however, can slip into the cold uniformity of empirical existence. It is then experienced as a surface, as something in which we are merely 'interested.' However, if in listening to music there is a suspension of the aesthetical mode of experience, a suspension which paves the way to a 'listening through' instead of a 'listening to' then music is experienced as a direct, open, powerful presence of Being.

Music occupies a high place in man's cipher script, in his endeavor to pierce all veils of the mystery of existence.

from Chapter Nine of my 'Music and Metaphysics'